Happy Thanksgiving

Happy thanksgiving to all my US readers :)  We celebrated last month in Canada, so while you all get 2 days off enjoying turkey, I get to work today.  On that note though, it's nice and quiet cause all the US staff are on vacation ;)

Today I'm 9weeks! and I am so very, very thankful.  In 6 more days I will get my second u/s and we will get to see the baby again.  Assuming all is well I'll then be released to my doctors care.

This is a scary time for me, last time we lost the baby at 7w5d, but we didn't find out till the u/s at 9w6d.  As life would have it - the next u/s is also scheduled for 9w6d. The similarities in the dates have me a little freaked out, as does my disappearing/reappearing symptoms.

I have realised over the past few weeks though that what is going to happen will happen, I am doing my very best to make everything work out, but if something does go wrong, at least I know that I could not have done anything different to prevent it.  Last time I spent a lot of time blaming myself, and analyzing every little thing I had done looking for a reason, an answer where none could be found.

I am trying to live in the "now", appreciating what I can while suffering through all day nausea, vomiting, burping constantly, the smells and the fatigue.  I am envious of those who are cruising through their first trimester with no m/s.  I truly can not wait for the second tri - I am looking forward to relief of these symptoms, and a little less anxiety :)