Saturday I had my baby shower - it's not a UK custom, but since I'm in Canada now, I guess we are supposed to accommodate their customs.
It was a beautiful day, my friend picked me up and we drove to the restaurant, 7 of my lovely friends were there - we had a lot of no shows - including one that really upset me. This "friend" I have known for 7 years, helped with her first preemie baby, supported through a m/c, and even managed to stay in contact (although) lightly during her second pregnancy (where we had our 2nd m/c where our due date would have been 3 weeks after hers), she didn't show up - no call, no explanation, no contact at all for about a month. I am tired of her drama though, and have decided that if she doesn't want to be friends, then as much as I will miss her oldest kid, I will be able to deal with it.
I feel really blessed though to have these 7 special women in my life, we had a lovely lunch, with some baby games interspersed and the most gorgeous cake ever!
I got a few items off my registry and my cloth diaper collection is on its way to being established :) Given most of my friends are knitters I was surprised that I only got one knitted item, but I think everyone thought the same thing LOL I had a fabulous time.
When I got home, I sat down in the rocking chair in the babies room, and ended up in tears. I think the emotion of the day just overwhelmed me.
On Friday I bumped into an old friend I hadn't seen in awhile who is now 21 weeks pregnant, she was telling me her nursery was finished and all the clothes are washed and put away - and all I kept thinking was "how brave".... I realised that I haven't washed any of the baby clothes that we purchased, or hung the curtains, or put on the crib bedding - it made me sad that at 32 weeks I still have my doubts we will end up with a little one in our arms :(
NST test this am, the baby did fabulous - we were in and out in 20 minutes, the accelerations were perfect :) Belly is measuring in at 34 weeks, baby gestational age is 32w6d, next u/s is May 23rd - I can't wait to see how much he has grown and what he weighs in at. I desperately want a photo of him too :)
I plan this weekend to buy the remaining needed items from the registry - bassinet, car seat, breast pump and cloth diapers. Then over the next few weeks I'll pick up the remaining odds and ends, I'm not planning on a lot of clothes - we have 4 newborn onesies, and about 10 0-3 month onesies - I think that should be good as a starting point.