It is only 10 days till my first ultrasound, I am excited. I won't lie, I'm apprehensive and of course I have worries, but overall the message in my head and heart is hopeful.
After 3 years of TTC, 1 missed miscarriage found at 10weeks, and a chemical, it's hard to equate being pregnant with actually getting a baby out of the deal. Yes, everyone goes on about positivity and trying not to worry, that is obviously easier said than done.
With my first BFP I was blissfully happy, skipping through my pregnancy without a care in the world, we told our families at 8weeks. I thought that 2 lines equalled a baby, and my world came crashing down on me at our 10week ultrasound. One D&C later and having to tell the family the bad news, I am more aware of the possible bad outcomes.
So I think it's natural to have concerns, and I'm okay with that. Would I prefer to be blissfully ignorant - of course, but my first miscarriage removed that innocence from me.
For now I am 5weeks 5 days pregnant, and I'm totally in love. DH and I are obviously wishing for the best, and are starting to think of the future, I lie in bed and marvel that we are back at this point in our journey and I pray to get to the next milestone.
In 10 days I will see our baby(s), and see the flicker of heartbeats, and my heart will explode with love and happiness.
In the meantime I am grateful for the few pregnancy symptoms I currently have: fatigue, acid reflux, nausea, insane sense of smell, irritability and the wonderful belching ;)
Showing posts with label Waiting. Show all posts
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Tuesday, 1 November 2011
Friday, 16 September 2011
13DPO, waiting for AF
So I POAS this am and BFN. I wasn't surprised. I was really, really hoping that this would somehow be a miracle cycle and I wouldn't have to do IVF, but no joy!
So I anxiously await AF, I hear Suprefract can slow things down a little, but I am hoping she arrives by Sunday. I want to get my baseline u/s and monitoring done and get on the IVF train. The plan is 75IU Repronex and 75IU Puregon, I will watch the dvd provided by the clinic over the weekend to see how to mix and do the injections :)
The Suprefract injections are getting so much easier - it's crazy I was so worried about them and they are so simple. No more bruising, they are still a little itchy sometimes but it's all good.
C'mon AF, I want my protocol with dates!!
So I anxiously await AF, I hear Suprefract can slow things down a little, but I am hoping she arrives by Sunday. I want to get my baseline u/s and monitoring done and get on the IVF train. The plan is 75IU Repronex and 75IU Puregon, I will watch the dvd provided by the clinic over the weekend to see how to mix and do the injections :)
The Suprefract injections are getting so much easier - it's crazy I was so worried about them and they are so simple. No more bruising, they are still a little itchy sometimes but it's all good.
C'mon AF, I want my protocol with dates!!
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